& I just screwed everything up with the person I wanted to talk to, wow. Anyway, on a better note, 24th may, RONIN & 987 WILL BE IN STC FOR A CONCERT!
I'm sorry I got pissed at that ass, but I'm not going to personally apologise.
We're talking about something that can change my life forever.
You shouldn't have just left me there after you said you would go up with me.
I've always forgiven you, now I can't even trust you.
Let's just say I'm sick of everyone. I'm sick of every damn thing they do. Just screw yourselves. I give up studying. Okay, I give up everything. Yeah this freaking song just describles how I feel.
I'm talking about a split decision made in anger, you know
I'm talking something that could change my life forever
Is it worth it? No.
I wish it was christmas night. I'd love to get drunk right now.
Happy birthday Lyanne!
Pencil&Ruler/Ruler&Pencil! :D
Why is everyone suddenly older than me? Haha. I went for the confirmation mass just now. Son Of Dork is supercool! <3 GOODBYE!
Don't forget to play with Cayden.
Saturday, April 29, 2006
While I am busy STUDYING, you can play with my pet :D I think it's so adorable. adopt your own virtual pet!
Friday, April 28, 2006
Crazy people say crazy things, right? Well, I'm not crazy. The dude is! Just look at this snippet of our conversation.
Dudette:
I think your getting really...
Dudette:
sleepy.
Dude:
i am?
Dude:
[smacks]
Dude:
no im not. im awake!
Dude:
=)
Dude:
O.O
Dude:
see how beeeeeg my eyes are.
Dudette:
LOL!
Dudette:
Your high, I swear
Dude:
i am?
Dude:
ooooo.
I feel sick today. I almost lost my voice, I almost got a terrible flu & I almost left dizzy for almost the whole day. I want to watch the bourne supremecy but I'm really really tired!
Satu, dua, TIGA! (:
I was only covering her ears.
English exams today, it was sucking fhits! I did question 5. The damn paper was like mostly aguementative in my eyes! I decided to write Refuge. I wrote about a girl without a family, without a name, without anything. She was referred to as 'it'. She lost her parents on her birthday, got sent to a home where she was abused. So she ran away. Then she was just standing in a corner of the street, reminiscing. Then later a family walked past, a family like one she had. Then she broke down. Then that father of the family walked to her. I ended by saying maybe I was just dreaming or something. But perhaps, something about seeking rufuge? I don't know.
MEANING OF REFUGE
Protection or shelter, as from danger or hardship.
A place providing protection or shelter.
A source of help, relief, or comfort in times of trouble
So yes, I hope I do well. I'm not happy with the parts where she got abused and all though, I didn't go into detail! I was too dizzy. My hand hurt alot during the second paper, I can't hold a pen without it quivering. Disgusting! Walked with Yiwen to Prumei. Then I went to Pan's house. Lucky is so cute! He wanted to eat the biscuit thing, I didn't finish mine. Because he was like following the biscuit?! Hahaha, it was hilarious. I talked to Lucky okay, :D Then we went for tuition. Clarissa was there. Bestfriend & her brother were there too. After that we took pictures at the void deck! I played with Pan's hair, and my hands got sticky! Ewwwww. Haha, then we went to eat bakuteh. Mmms, I like the soup with the rice! Lovely. Then I got sent home. :D Now I can happily rip the Son Of Dork cd! Tickeet outta loserville! Their songs are nice, but I think 10 is a little boring? Aunty didn't come online today. Must be because the boss is coming back today aye?
:D THAT'S PAN. <3
Thursday, April 27, 2006
She's too nice. Her compo is super good la please! I have to learn, absorb and regurgitate everything out! The way she wrote the short few word sentences, very effective. Super. Great. Astonishing. Something like that. Big impact on the reader. I'm going to learn that technique and try it with a paragraph. Too many paragraphs of that will cause boredom. The ending was really flat, but amusing. Notice how the unexpected happens? She even offered help. :D So I better do my work. Aunty's a really nice person you know.
MJ:
haha. english not pro laaa. i come from eng background. no one speaks chinese one.
MJ:
thats why chinese FAIL.
MJ:
hahahah
:D
SAME!
:D
haahha
:D
hi 5 sia
English is tomorrow! Die.
Anyway, now I'm doing my BIOLOGY. (:
Who will be out from American Idol today? I hope it's either Kelly Pickler or Elliot Yamiez. The others are still good enough. CHRIS! (:
Life is good. I wonder how she is now? Poor girl.
Her face expressed a gamut of expressions, from anger to resentment.
The language was perfect, her speech pompous. Grandiloquence was her middle name.
You made my life seem so perfect, when all this time you were painting a picture of lies.
Everything I did, was no better than your heinous crime.
Whatever he did, it would be perfect. He was infallible after all, right?
As soon as I stepped into the room, my heart lurched. It was covered in a plethora of crimson.
In that split-second, he was pummeled into pulp.
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
I learnt surds. Ha! It's quite dumb. I find surds to be similar to those 'challenge youselves' sums back in primary school. Where we were asked to split a (something) into a certian number with two lines or something. Sohpia is being a nerd, she can answer everything! I shall sit next to her man. Because I cannot see form the back! ): I have to copy everything off Marcella. Or strain my neck, which hurts. So tomorrow I'm sitting between Sophia and Atheena.
Atheena, Marissa, Marcella, Shahilia and I went to harbourfront today. We were supposed to do the lit project shit. But in the end, we ended up laughing like crazy! On the way there, Marcella suddenly started talking about Shahila's legs, which she didn't know how to shave. So now it is all patches of hair here and there! It is so funny, that you will roll off your chair and die. We were laughing about everything to do with Shahilia. Because she's the worst organised person you will ever meet! We ate at yoshi! It's been a long time. This is my first time this year going there. Now I'm super full! I shouldn't have eaten man! We laughed at everything, it's so funny :D My stomach hurt so bad. I hate laughing so much. It's hurts, really. It's english this friday, I don't want to fail. So now I have to start trying, but I have forgotten everything I have learnt.
Slowly I pulled the trigger knowing that the gun was loaded and I would be with him again just a few moments after the bullet went through my head. The bullet ran cleanly through the barrel and hit me with excruciating pain. My life was over and I knew we would now be together forever watching our friends and family from somewhere or someone else.
Life cannot be better for us because now that we are both dead nothing can rip us apart.
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
I told you I was treating you too much like a celebrity. Your just someone I knew, I know. Perhaps maybe someone I will never forget? For you, I shall study.
:D
slp well and STUDY!
Reality is crashing to the floor says:
Alright.
:D
lol
Reality is crashing to the floor says:
Yeah, i'll TRY.
:D
night
Reality is crashing to the floor says:
Haha, goodnight.
:D
you better
:D
later auntie here nag
:D
night
Reality is crashing to the floor says:
HEHHHHH.
Reality is crashing to the floor says:
(:
I'm just waiting for the inevitable to happen. For someone to beak this 'perfect' day. Because underneeath it all, it ain't nothing but chisled, blemished. It's sad, the way I'd like to see you pummeling someone else. When you ask me why, I still say nothing.
One time is more than enough for a lifetime. I have to start studying thoroughly. Remember when I told you I teared, not cried? Well, things have changed. I can't say it's for the better...
I think I'm crazy, up in my head. I shouldn't be feeling this way, no I shouldn't. I hate school too, I hate the exams, I hate teachers. Someone send me an angel.
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DESIREE! :D
Now your old man! Hahaha.
Lin has become my twin? Haha. Now I have two twins. One's Lin, whom apprantly is like. Ahems! Haha. Manu! The other is like totally girly, the total opposite of Lin. So funny okay today. Lin was bullying Shah. Then Jessica pulled her hairtie, but it didn't come off. So Shah turned around to me, and demanded for her hairtie which was still on her head. ?! Haha. Then while she was doing that, Lin stole her hairtie. :D Haha. Now it's still with Lin. I don't know what she wants to do with it. But I know that Shah has to admit that Manu is better than Arse-nal before she gets it back, ha!
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Even after one & a half hours, I still can't remember what you sound like. Not even what you said. What's wrong with me? Your just another person on the street, but I'm treating you like a star. 001.What is the best way to get over someone?
I don't know. You'll just have to wait I guess.
002. What makeup do you wear on a daily basis?
Hmm, imaginary makeup. Does that count?
003. Is your AIM away message on?
I gave up using AIM.
004. If you could eat one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Ehhh, one with alot of different types of stuff! :D
005. What curse word do you use the most?
Shit, hahahaha.
006. Do you own an ipod?
Should I? It's a waste of my time.
007. Who on your msn "top 6" do you talk to the most?
I don't got no top 6.
008. What time is your alarm clock set for?
The radio alarm, 600, phone, 602.
009. Have you ever bid for something on ebay?
Nahh, I don't want to, I use yahoo auctions.
010. Do you wear flip-flops even when its cold outside?
I don't wear flip-flops outside(usually). I dislike them.
011. Where do you buy your groceries from?
The dammed supermarket? Tsk.
012. Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
It depends on who I might be taking the picture with, :D
013. What was the last movie you watched?
Yours, mine & ours. It was pretty alright (:
014. Do any of your friends have children?
Sure, why not?
015. If you won the lottery, whats the first thing you would buy?
The first thing? Happiness for my entire life.
016. Has anyone ever called you lazy?
I am a bum. Once a bum, always a bum!
017. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep faster?
No.
018. What CD is currently in your CD player?
I play all my songs on the computer now.
019. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
CHOCOLATE :D
020. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
Well, I ain't supposed to tell you am I? Besides, I'm the secret keeper :D
021. When was the last time someone hit on you?
Hahaha, what kind of person wants to know?
022. What did you have for dinner?
I will have maggi noodles
023. What is your biggest fear?
Most probably the dark? I don't know. Heights ain't so bad.
024. What color is your eyes?
Brown black.
025. Can you whistle?
Yeah.
026. What is your favorite Christmas/winter movie?
Surprise, I don't like christmas. Not until it's over, ):
027. Do you make your own jewelery?
Eh? I'm not that free. Besides, I hardly wear any.
028. Ever participated in a protest?
Hahaha. (:
029. Who was the last person to call you? When?
Yesterday, Cheng. In the evening?
030. What is your favorite ride at an amusement park?
The thing that spins you 360 degrees, it's damn nice. I don't understand why people get all sick after they ride it.
031. What is something you must do everyday?
Check my phone. Computer! Hahaha.
032. Have you ever dated one of your best friends?
Hahaha, no? Did I? Hahaha.
033. What area code are you in right now?
Got area code? Ooh...
034. Did you watch cartoons as a child?
Well, no I was deprived.
035. How big is your local mall?
It's not big and we don't call it a mall.
036. What is your job title?
Student. :/
037. What do you miss most?
200205. Take me back?
038. Would you ever sky dive?
Yeah, sure.
039. What are you allergic to?
Idiots. Homework.
040. What is your biggest regret?
Ha! ): Mr H H!
041. Have you ever had Jamba Juice?
Nope, never?
042. When was the last time you laughed so hard your sides hurt?
Yes! During the bazaar, OMG!
043. What movies do you know every line to?
Titanic? HAHA, I love titanic okay! (:
044. Do you own any band t-shirts?
Nahh, they're not worth it.
045. What is your favorite candle scent?
Strawberry, <3>
I killed my suicide.
Anyway, it's a Sunday. I don't want to be at home. But well, I'm stuck here cause that girl ain't replying, rahh! ): That boy just poofed off la, bloody hell. I'm still pissed off by that mofo. Which one? Ask that boy. Because I told him. He kept smiling retardedly. Everytime I got angry, when I turned and faced him I would burst out in laughter. :D Thanks for smiling like that, hahaha.
I'm going to view the pictures.
http://community.livejournal.com/foto_decadent/
It's really good, go check it out (:
Thank god Cheng liked it, :D So now how for boy? What to buy, what to buy?
Saturday, April 22, 2006
With the sudden ourburst of anger and displeasuse, I can only say that it's screwed. I think sticking to what you do best, screwing with other people is what you should stay doing. Damn.
There's no wonder why
Hello, I am Hendricks Jeanne. Crazy and all messed up. It's just another normal day at home, doing nothing. When I do something, I get scolding.
:D I'm leaving now, byebye.
I feel like I'm writing some suicide note. But who cares? The only thing I've looked forward to is gone.
I just got off the phone. I've been talking about about an hour plus. It's still one somthing! I want to go out, run and play. Hahaha, :D
School's sucha chore.
I want my lollipops now, okay? (: You've been oweing me them for weeks already! After the one hour fourty six minute talk we had, I want it now. Hahaha. Still can say I never msg you, haiyoh!
When you count the days, they seem longer. When you enjoy them, they'll never last forever. When the nights become bold, we'll regret what happened.
Happy birthday to Cheng & Elizabeth.
Don't confuse the Henricks Jeanne with the Hendricks Jean. We're two different people! She's my cousin. Our middle names just sound the same and look the same. It's very cool. Why? Because she's our age. Wahahahas. :D Later there's Cheng's party. We still haven't decided on what to get for ... yeah. How how how? Plus ... doesn't want anything. Haha, I think I made it quite clear who ... is! What does Tong Hua sound like? Ehhh, die. I forgot how to play already. Hahaha. More like I forgot the song, hehh.
Friday, April 21, 2006
Hendricks Jeanne:
waterbomb! hahaha
Friend:
o.0
Friend:
that was random.
Friend:
errr...errrr.....head torch!
Hendricks Jeanne:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Hendricks Jeanne:
what?!?! hahaha
Friend:
randomness rocks.
The bazaar was crazy! We had to stop the water balloons halfway! The sec fours/fives were taking our water and the balloons and splashing and throwing at each other. Without paying. They wouldn't stop when we asked them to, so they forced us to end the game! But who cares. We had like three tubs of water balloons to play with and burst! The let us play for awhile :D It was fun while it lasted. The filling of the balloons was crazy! My finger is like red-purple because of tying up and filling the balloon! What nonsense okay, so painful, oww. Tomorrow, CHENG! (: But what are we going to get for that boy? Alamak! I don't know what to buy already, next week is the start of my CA. Oh no, English, ahh. Mrs Raju! Don't fall sick anymore! ):
I don't know what to do now, hmmm. I'm sticky, sweaty. I basically had a good day. I want to go England, now!
Thursday, April 20, 2006
We can't play water bombs! ): Stupid gorilla! Now we're doing I don't know what, blackjack? Ahh, I'm just going to slack. I'm the one doing the flyers, I don't know what I'm doing though. I don't think the others are going to do anything? My class has like 6 stalls now. So cool right? :D
The water something something, madicure, Cookies/brownies, That shoot shoot water game, I don't know what & I don't know what also. I'm so not enthu this year, ahh! But then again, not everyone is enthu about everything.
That, that. I don't know what to call him. But yeah, I basically got some freaking "talk". I got so pissed, I felt like just *%^$&$#*&)* la. Dammit. _ is dying somemore. What'd you expect? Asshole.
Had the SYF thing again today. It was FUN :D Spent the whole time with the 3C/E people. I always go with them la, so yeah. Can blend in & woosh. Haha, i like the hip swaying dance. It's so oohlala, sexy man.Especially the shimmy! (: I love the shimmy. At first when Des DANCED, I laughed and died. Then I eventually got used to it. Cheng & I have an agreement that she's turning gay! Haha, so funny please. :D Then I went to Claire's house. I learnt how to play Tong Hua. Some chinese song? Because she like chinese song expert la. I'm going to irritate my brother with that song! Hahaha.
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
This morning I was waiting for Shahilia to come with me up to the canteen. There was some meeting of some sort for cca? I don't know. I haven't been participating since, sometime last year, ): Now I know why the seniors were all so sad when she left.
Talking to Aunty's Evil Twin now. Haha, but she doesn't want to be called Aunty. Only her Nice Twin can be called Aunty. & she remembered to call me Dudette! (: Now I have to find a evil name to call her, cannot be Aunty or Uncle. Hmmm....
I'll let you read, okay? :D
Hendricks Jeanne:
YO!
Hendricks Jeanne:
dude.
Aunty's Evil Twin:
harlo
Aunty's Evil Twin:
dudette.
Hendricks Jeanne:
haha! you REMEMBERED! aunty's evil twin.
Aunty's Evil Twin:
oei.
Aunty's Evil Twin:
im not aunty okay.
Aunty's Evil Twin:
she is but im not.
Aunty's Evil Twin:
which part of me screams "aunty" ?
Anyway, we've decided that she be called Dude. And labelled as w. :D
W for wierd. W for w*. W for W*!
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Ohmygod, I seriously don't know what to do now. I want to know more but I daren't ask. Today was alright, cca was not bad. :D I spent the chinese periods at the sick bay with Jessica. I'm so tired now! We caught up on the happenings and the breakage of bonds. I sound like I'm teaching chemistry! Okay, nevermind. Haha. Today in the morning Fiona happily beat my score for the puzzle puzzle game. Rahh! I beat Ruiwei's score in her pinball game, :D Now I'm hiding from Fiona, she's scary. Really! Haha.
Boy : I bet you'll forget me in a year's time.
Jay Leno : No, I won't.
Boy : I bet you'll forget me in a month's time.
Jay Leno : No, I won't.
Boy : I bet you'll forget me in a day's time.
Jay Leno : No, I won't.
Boy : I bet you forgot what I said
Jay Leno : What?!
As long as skies are blue, I'll belong to you. :D
Monday, April 17, 2006
Years of revalations later, I still don't get the fact that what happened has happened. As you said, it seems so surreal. I tell you know, the truth is harder than the pain. I'll hate you for all the times you said no. Only fraction of a second, and my thoughts are directed at someone else. Then I don't blame you anymore. I really don't know? I'm just confused aye?
Cause I don't want you to know where I am, cause then you'll see my heart in the sadest state it's ever been.
I'll can only protect you to the best of my abilities, any more and I'll fall.
tinted memories, where it's all stained in thorough red.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Someone asked me a really random question if I spoke to PM often. Well I don't, I think I know why very well. But I just don't understand why PM said whatever last time? If you ever read this, don't ever ask, please. I just found out you actually ____. I'm ashamed, ):
I wish this world would just turn the other way round and reverse time.
Edit.
I don't know what to get for Cheng on saturday! I really don't. So I think I'll go get something with some others. :D I'm not going to tell you who or what wer're going to buy. Shhhhh! I can't wait to go to England. Then Rome and Venice. :D I want to go, I want to go. But it's not exactly the people I want to go with, but who cares. Next time Charissa & I shall have our trip to some mountian place & ski! (:
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Went for the 10am mass, :D I think he'll be most probably my only crush since then and till the end of this year. My heart is going in shock from looking at his face for an hour. Hahaha, what nonsnese. I'm talking absolute rubbish. I just watched the Isabel cheerleading. Felicia Kang & my conversation was all recorded there, like hahaha. It's so funny.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9QfSrRjKI3s
Go watch alright, it's super funny. You should hear the conversation. Hahaha, it's like this whole pro-isabel thing. :D So funny.
Stupid girl, don't try to be funny, you'll just end up falling on your face. That's plain disgrace.
Saturday, April 15, 2006
pictures frozen in time are becoming clearer.
During mass yesterday when we sang amazing grace, I was feeling emotional. because I was remembering about the funeral la, ): Damn. I changed the clock. :D Thanks to Sakura.
Am I going for the virgil later? I don't know, :/ Spoke to Darryl just now because Charissa handed the phone over to him. It was so funny. Anyway, talking online is fun too. :D But i think she was really mean when she said something about those two aye.
I'm standing still, I'm not going to move. I'm just waiting, I'm still waiting. I'm waiting for the day you'll say I love you too.
Edit.
In the end, I didn't go for the virgil. I'm missing the people in church like damn. There isn't anyone online to talk to ): I don't know where she went! The other's busy, it's a poo-poo thing. So now I'm going to print out and read fanfiction.com or maybe I'll just read it on the spot. It's nice I tell you. I just wish that Fevi and I were on better terms? Mmhmm, who I am hates who I've been.
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2241pm.
Friday, April 14, 2006
There used to be Nick Lachey. I hate this life, but I'll miss it when your gone ):
There was the Mrs Jessica Lachey.
It ran so deep it hurt.
Yeah, the pain will heal with time. I don't care what you say, I know it will. It will, it will... Won't it? I can't seem to convince myself though, :/
Anyway, talking to physco is fun. :D I'm having fun, see? I'm crazy, your crazy, we'll all crazy for love. We give love a bad name. But it's fun anyhow. I want to watch Aly and AJ's Rush and Nick Lachey's What's Left Of Me video. :D I'm going going going! But for now, I am going to read fanfiction.com The story is called Make Me Forget His Name. Valentine Encounter and Ugly are also good. They're all DHr. I like DHr. But I love Frankvin, (:
Crashing down like ground zero.
Sigh, I don't know whet I'm going to do later, ): What time is mass later anyway? I'm super tired. I can't sleep. The only other person whom I know wasn't at mass when we last spoke isn't replying me. Rahh! I want to go mass, with somebody man. I don't want to go alone! She's online, she's online. But she's asleep. Don't ask, I'm not going to explain. There's enough mess made.
Right after I posted the last post, twin sent me Taste Of Ink! (: I'm head banging to Cascada? Haha, what a wierd combination! I wonder what time mass is later. Everyone's still asleep. :/ I woke up at five plus, and then went back to sleep. My mother irritated me at eight plus and now I can't sleep. Stupid. Now I realise mass is NOW, and nobody told me. So I'm not going, ____.
I'm pissed off. Because that's the mass I want to go to. Where are you when I need you?
Poor QWE is sad, ): Sad ans angry. I can relate, I'm no longer looking forward to. When I'll next see you ): Dammit.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
I'm telling you, everyone is complaining about teachers. So far the science ones are the least hated and all? I don't know, school's becoming such a bore. I'm telling you it's stupid. No one listens to no one and the students are caught in the middle. I detest this one big piece of crap. Making my life miserable isn't something big, because my life already is. Unless something not miserable happend, it's normal. Get it? That's why I'm still ranting on over everything in my blog.
Just now I went to church for mass. Sat with "cousin" and twin. I was noticing TYU today, remembering whatever happened last time. Now we don't even act like friends. we both act like we've never known each other. It's scary, when you look back and see how things changed. Yeah, after mass I ate my bun because I was super duper hungry! Then the girls stole pizza from the alter boys la. We asked though, :D It was goooood. We took the most from Nandee. Then they walked Charissa home and I went off the Claire's house. I learnt how to play The Scientist by Coldplay. So coool. Anyway, I just ate dinner. So now I'm still very awake. I'm supposed to be coutingdown! :D I'm not telling you why. I'm listening to my crap songs. I want Taste Of Ink by The Used! Send me, :D
NATASHAYEO, YOUR HALF-EATEN NOSE! HAHAHA.
Today I hugged, you. We've been far apart, but somehow we're still together.
SHE KNOWS IT'S TOO LATE.
f for four tests.
The four tests today, was horrible. I had no idea what I was doing in all the tests. I feel so dumb now, I can't take the pressure man. I was trying to ____ with I-don't-know-what & the limegreen. Crazy la, so stressful. Four tests okay, not two. Today we cleared out from the rifel range, I'm going to miss it, ):
There was this arguement in class today, I really don't understand why we have to. Damn the bazzar, it's not even open for longer, only fourty-five minutes?! What can I do during then? We're doing DDR and helium balloons, :/ boring. Eight of us wanted to do haunted house, but those infront kept telling us cannot cannot. Then we came up with plan and all. They still tell us cannot cannot, they weren't even listening to us? So yeah, in the end we decided let them do what they want la, it's only fourty-five minutes. Then later poon talked to us about being cooperative and all, what the hell? Not my problem. He still can in-point me & Sarah. It's not like a feigned being unable to do that okay, I really can't.
After school, I was with Charlene Goh, Shahilia, Atheena and Ashley. They did their english. Then I went off to the busstop. Went home basically. I'm still waiting for _______'s call. ): I still want to know okay! Don't leave me hanging.
Should you be a teacher, eat that HWC.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
I had Macdonalds. Mmms, I'm so tired. I've got to study for the sciences & ss, oh man! I'm going to die tomorrow. I'll just kill myself if I don't do well in Bio & Chem. Maybe not, but yeah. Expectations, ):
I don't want to go to school tomorrow. But I have to? Oh, right. Sigh ):
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
I failed geog & got full marks for amath. :D
I'm pretty satisfied. Ivy & Jason more well known as Uttfan & Maseman broke up man. Big big drama on the MTV pop inc just now, so interesting. It has something to do with this friend of Ivy's. Some whole big bunch of lies and BABY! Whoots.
Today was the most interesting chinese lesson, ever! This lady from 88.3fm came to my school and talked to us about being a dj. She said it was stressful and all. I don't see any english dj's complaining?! So that means the morale of the story is be an english dj, not a chinese dj. I was sitting with Des with 3c. I felt like the only one without specs there! I sort of left Marcella alone? Hehh.
PARTNERD!
cheer up, it's not so nice to see you sad, ): come to school la, just don't bother about _ alright. be HAPPY. i'll always be here for you. even if you need two hours to talk, i'll be here. (:
Monday, April 10, 2006
One day we'll know.
I've got English, Geog, SS, Chinese, Chemistry, Amath, Literature. I think, ohmygod. I don't know. I'm so stressed out by homework, ): I have to finish Amath, Chinese, Ss, Geog. Die, die, die! Can anyone help me do my work? Some stupid girl has been tagging _'s blog. Hahaha, it's so funny. Break out in laughter, that's what I do when ever I read it. Wierdo. I finally got my reply from girlfriend. Haiyohhh. Hahaha. (:
Twenty-five minutes too late.
Blogger just deleted everything i typed, damn it. I won't wste my time typing all over again. I'm way too deep into DHr again, I'm almost addicted. That's bad, I shouldn't ever be. Ahh, freak all the work I have to do. It's such a big pile, I don't think I'll ever get it done. She thinks we had a fight, I don't know. We never did, we're fine. Really, why did you ever think that way? Anyway, I love my twin. I will always love her, no matter what. We've been tested before, nothing can shake the ground we've built upon. Not even a boy, or a girl, or you! Where's girlfriend anyway? She's been mia! ): Never reply me still aye, I'm heartbroken. My cousin doesn't want to admit defeat. I've won, you'll never win. NEVER.
Don't even try.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ONE & ONLY, TWINNY. CHARISSA, I LUBB YOU. HAHA.
I went for mass alone, but later ended sitting with Germaine and chatting throughout. I want to watch a movie, I'm really down now. I don't know why. Anyway, while talking to Germaine just now, I found about alot of things, it was shocking. My parents are watching Grey's Anatomy, how cool. I just left the tv on and they happily watched. Okay, I want to watch a movie, I don't mind going alone today. Maybe I should just go alone, and just rot inside, alone. I should stop being an interovert.
I'm never gonna be your perfect little girl, the perfect little sister. I'm never gonna be the perfect example. So why bother with the "setting a good example", I thought you'd have known better. Don't tell me not to play with knives.
Saturday, April 08, 2006
I don't want to talk to _, not this year. Perhaps someday, sometime in the years to come. Maybe I'll just talk to you, but not now. But I don't think never. I'm just sad, so sorry.
What I wanna?
But I gotta let you go.
Touch the sky, with your arms up high.
I went to Crescent just now. Charissa took a cab to my place and picked me up. Picked up Edwin and then went to Crescent. First thing, we went to find Pan. Then she brought us to Camillus, Mathias, Gerry and Michael Thang. We walked around the place for abit. Later Camillus, gerry & Michael Thang went off. So Charissa, Rachel & I were left with Mathias & Edwin. Then I really wanted to sit on the ride that went in circles, not the spinning one, the one that says something about Miami. ?! haha, don't ask. So then Mathias's friend ben came, he was so naive. We tricked him that Edwin found Mathias's phone so he wanted to teturn it, and he fell for it, like ohmygosh. Oh, all three of them are/were from SJI. Sji people are like, crazy. Haha. It was so funny. Later when we finally sat the ride, the rest of them were starring at us. Only Mathias screamed okay. Haha, he's gay. We're not. I flew around in my stupid seat! If i let go of the bars, I ould have flew more. It was hahaha fun. :D Then there was thing angmoh guy, with his two friends(also guys). They sat, but they didn't fly around a single bit! They were like rooted, and I flew around in my seat?! What? Maybe it was because they were heavier than me? But he looked pretty skinny. Oh well, maybe he just has a big butt. We went to get buble tea before we left. I got Chocolate, it tastes HORRIBLE. Everyone tried mine and said Ben's milo he bought earlier was even more horrible. In the end, Ben took my drink. It was disgusting, yuck! But they only ate the pearls, because their pearls were apprantly HARD AS ROCK. Haha, and we bought it for two bucks a piece. They're such a rip-off! Then we went down to tiong. Waited for thenm to eat their BK then we went to take neos. We didn't know which picture to choose, and in the end, we only chose ONE picture. HAHAHAHA, so funny okay. The picture I wanted wasn't there though, ): But it was MRSUN & MRMOON! That was what the pictures say, its so funny. I got my lime-coloured laces! Then I went home (:
It's you, and everything you do.
Your just like a pill, addictive.
Your worse than crack and cocaine.
I welcome you to peter pan land.
Slap slap, I need to get ready, I have to stop delaying. ): Okay, with that. I'm off. To Tiong, where I'll meet twin & Edwin. We'll take a train down to Crescent. & Oohlala. :D Okay Pan, here I come. Wait for me, hahaha. (: I want to go into the haunted house. I also want to drink my bubble tea. Aww, I miss my buble tea. So I'm going to rush down to Tiong to get my bubblea tea before we leave for Crescent. You know, they scared me when they told me Charlene wasn't picking up and they didn't know if she was going. I was so scared I couldn't go and see you okay. But now it's like, woohoo. :D We're only half-an-hour away. Plus fifteen minutes to walk all the way there, poopoo. Girlfriend. (:
I'll treat you good, I'll never let you down.
I promise I'll always make you smile.
I know I'll love you, all my life.
Friday, April 07, 2006
But I gotta let you go.
Tomorrow, Crescent Crescent. :D I'm going with twinny. I've got her present. I'm just waiting for Sunday. Don't ask why I got it, it's some really cool oddball that I found in Zed and Zee. How cool? Very! Now I owe Shahilia a buck. Hahaha, she actually sort of nagged at me to return the buck to her. Now Shahilia, don't read this post. (: Heeheehee. I'm sunburnt, and the burn is really obscene. Not really, but the sunburn isn't symetrical! Aww, that's so sad. I always have my v-shaped burn. Who else likes wearing that tight v-neck? Goldspink, :D So it's all cool. Oh man, I don't know what to spend my ten bucks on tomorrow. I'll most probably go to the haunted house. Sneak me in! Or you could just pay for me, (: Haha. I hope it'd be fun. I'm going with someone who'd just fixed her braces, for don't-know-what-purpose. The Ashley Parker Angel page takes really long to load! I'll have to view it tomorrow, ): Oh well.
Don't break my spirit, because without it I can't think straight. You know what I would do, with my penknife.
Watch as it all fades away.
ISABEL, I LOVE YOU. FOREVER AND EVER AND EVER. :D Today was awesome. Joseph got third! (: I was really hoping for them to get into the top three, because I haven't seen them get out of them bottom in my entire life in secondary school. Plus this year, they had a really good number of runners. Next year my house will die, as our best runners would have left the school by then, ): But then again, I'm satisfied with everything that has happened. Our strongest runners are all in upper secondary! Oh no. I wonder who will be the captian for next year, it's so. SCARY, wierd. Everything, I hope whoever is elected will be really good. I'm still so glad we won, :D I was screaming and jumping like crazy when they announced we won. Later we kept singing 'WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS' over and over. After that, I went out with Alyssa, Cheng, Des, Foong Chin, Jessica, Nicole and Shahilia. WE ate our lunch at Yoshi and walked about. I helped them choose and give ideas for the presents. Then yeah, ran off for tuition, as I was VERY late. Rachel was already there! Oops, heh. (: Then we wanted to eat ice-cream after tuition. But the store was closed! ): So went off. Tomorrow, tomorrow. :D
Watch as it all fades away.
I'm sorry, I mistook you.
I'm sorry for the mess I made.
But I can't take it back.
Thursday, April 06, 2006
without you it's hard to survive.
Sitting here alone listening to techno music. Shit, and I just got some Trojan into my computer, this is not good. Tomorrow's the best day, and the worst. Mainly because I'll have to look at her disgusting face, and because I'll be having the time of my life, going out and screaming my heart out. Oh man, it's gonna be sweet.
I better go. It's time.
I've let go, completely.
You said forever that you would never let me go.
Tomorrow is sports day, oh no. I don't know what's going to happen, I don't think we'll win anymore. But hey, at least we did get what we've been wanting. (: That's my goal. I remember screaming my heart out when we won both the simming and track event last year. It was unimaginable. Now that it's time to step down, we shouldn't be falling from grace. But we should be decending gracefully, :D All the isabellians, no matter how much I've said I've disliked you and all, I love you all. Even this year's sec ones. Yes, even them. I just hope all goes well. I need to buy _ for twin. :D I'm going with girlfriend. Haha, then movie! But before that another outing & tuition. (: SATURDAY OKAY. YOUR FUNFAIR.
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Believe it's in yourself.
I came home about two hours ago and I still haven't bathed. Later I will, don't worry. Anyway, I like the word SARDONIC. I don't know where I heard it, but it sounds like super cool. Something like super-cat-man. Ooh? Haha. I'm talking online with ZhiWei, and he's crazy I tell you. Keeps going haha, so now he must go heehee. Or else I'll make him say heehee. He'll be my first haha-to-heehee convert! :D
All the small things, I actually miss that song. Plus I miss you.
After all this time, I realised that I've long moved on. It was just your words that had me fooled. Thinking that you wanted another shot. I gave you too many shots. Now your drunk in your own posion.
i promise i will take you there.
I don't know what they'd say. I still have chinese. I'm supposed to be not at home? Anyway, I would like to say, to the other nerd, rahh! Because ... nothing, I don't know. Just bring your mess tin. It's not like you read my blog anymore anyway.
So yeah, I'd better be gone.
I shouldn't be wasting my time,
thinking of how fun math classes used to be.
One last song, I sing for you like I always do. This time it's forever. I'll never come to you like this, expecting you to return my kiss.
I've got physics(from last last week?), math(half-done!), english($@*), literature(tomorrow I'll do it). God knows what else, ): I don't like the load, plus I've got to leave for my piano now. I can't believe how young she is, how her innocence was spoilt so early. I wonder what happened, poor girl. I went for penitential service today! :D Now I'm a good girl, no vulgarities. See, none. only %$#(*& and ASDFGHJKLs. Monster's really coming on friday? Ohman, it's been a few million years since i've last saw you.
There I go, off to my lesson.
Math was sick today, thank god I missed two periods. I was only there for the last three minutes or so. :D How cool right? CONFESSION ROCKS. Hahaha. Only when you get to miss two periods of lessons.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Death is something I'm not afraid of.
Torture me, mock me, salvage me. Kill me. I just noticed that death doesn't matter, because it's not a choice, it's an evental outcome. I have to do some stupid speech on school uniforms, I have to finish up my english, SS, math. Sigh, now I know why I think that death is an alternate solution. But then again, as much as I enjoy myself, I would like to take time away from worldly pleasures. I would like to read a book, a really good book and enchanted, just fly away. Just to fly away, I would do anything for that feeling. I still don't know why people play the choking game, just being hardly able to breathe is horrible. You can't speak, you just gasp. But I still wonder why at that moment, that split-second I thought abut death, it seemed peaceful. It's better that I don't know. That I'll never understand, because the answer is thougher than you know.
The cardboard box next to me says RP. That's very freaky! I wonder what friday will be like. I want to read more books, but I've got so many things to do.
World, stop turning.
Let me take my time,
I'll be gone. Not dead,
not dead but gone.
Far away, life goes on.
I was looking forward to today, because we would mostly be in the air-conditioned room! :D But later I died la, so yeah, no differnce. I couldn't breathe during PE. My mother asked me if I was scared that I'd die, should I be? My only reaction to the whole thing was that I didn't want to run anymore. I couldn't run. I could barely walk straight without feeling like throwing up. Pffts. The 100 plus was real good after that, :D Recess was good. The book all about dog handling was great. Math was all-right-ish. Chinese was ASDFGHJKL, if she thinks I'm that way, I shall be that way. I'm getting really pissed at her. Some kind of ass, who thinks she's always right. My chinese sucks, I need you to explain in English so I can undedrstand!
i liked cca.
Sunday, April 02, 2006
5653664! :D
I was just talking to my relatives online, they're in Australia and England. My cousin's leaving England in 6 hours time! He complains I don't talk to him face to face, but only online! I do okay, stupid stupid liar. :D I shall shh now, later he read this, then I'd just die.
I would like to apologize to CHOONGYEE.
Because I didn't tell her about the kellock funfair.
That's why she didn't come! ): Aww!
Nevermind, I'll be there this Saturday! :D
But it's the only thing i know.
( _'s name is changed to sweets, because _ is very very sweet!)
Yesterday's dinner was at Sentosa. You know, that place. The last time I was there was two years ago! Right before I left for Australia. I was there for a camp, & sweets was there for chalet. So yes, sweets came on the day I was kayaking, at Fort Siloso beach? The one were the dinner was held last night. He was staying at the Rasa Sentosa. We were messaging each other, so yeah, as I was going back to the other beach, sweets was coming towards the Rasa Sentosa. Guess what? Because I left my sandles back there, by the time I caught up with the rest of my group, I missed sweets! ): So last night when I was sitting facing the beach, I was like. ): ): ): for awhile. Then when we went back to mainland, I was kinda glad. Cause the memories won't haunt me so much there. but as you can see, I'm still thinking about it! :/
Yesterday, I thought I saw sweets in the MRT. Then later after half an hour, I asked sweets if sweets was in town. sewets said I'm at home, I'm going Mariane Parade later. Then sweets asked why, so I explained. As I was alone, I was bored. So sweets asked, do you want me to entertain you? Sweets messaged me all the way until I reached the funair okay, (:
Too bad your with someone else. :D But then again, I would be really glad if you didn't ignore me. But then again, I'm satisfyed with yesterday. I was so happy okay! Haha, Kemmy's hamsters are so cute. I want to pinch them, somehow. (:
the last one standing!
Yesterday was alright, without much anticipation. I'm supposed to be watching House Of Wax right now, but because of interruptions, rahh! :/ The funfair yesterday was packed, seriously packed. The stuff there was funny, I'll update later.
BACK TO MY SHOW! (:
The show was awesome! Gory, but not tht scary, I'm surprised. I expected it to be scarier? I still don't understand why I can't watch House Of Wax but I can watch Emily Rose. Emily Rose is way scarier. Poor kids who watched it, like me. Haha, it was scary alright, but I managed to sit through it. There was a bouncy castle, and many many arcade games yesterday. So many arcade games, such as ddr. From ezone or something? I don't know, I didn't play. I played the dumb games the kellockians put up. it was dumb, all the poor little kids couldn't earn much points. Jennifer happily cheated so that we could get lots of points! :D Haha, we were being mean.
Today was alright, better than the last few Sundays! (: That's an improvement. I hope it gets better each time, next week we'll have to bring our books. Or else CBD will get more points than PPP! The teachers are biased! They refuse to give us any points okay, so mean right!
Last night had wedding dinner at shangri-la. It was on the beach, not in the hotel, on the beach! It was super cool, I liked it alot. The food was pretty good, I liked the sushi! Halfway through the dinner, I went to take the food. So I was happily choosing, then Ms Phee went "Marianne?". I was so shocked, I said "Err, hi?" and I ran off. Hahaha, how dumb.
Now to watch the Sims 2 version of Skater Boy and then, off to work, ):
Saturday, April 01, 2006
If I could, then I would. I'll go where ever you would go. :D
I like the sweetness in the song. But then again, it's kind of sad, because he can't have her. But it's still nice. (: It's the song by The Calling, I can't remember the title though! :/
That's bad. It means I'm growing old. It means I'm going to DIE. Hahaha, okay, forgive me.
I am still not wanting to go to the funfair, but after reading S blog, maybe I should go. Because they all claim it will be fun. After all, why would I want to waste the tickets that was given to me? I should have just sold them away! How stupid right?
Or maybe I should wait until somone I know gets there and then I go, should I? But by then, it would be late and most of everything would be gone.
My blog should be hard to read, because I don't want you to. It's my blog, my life, my thoughts. I just feel like running away, don't ask why, because that's what I'm searching for. Answers. All I've got are questions swirling in my head, I'm trying to get them out.
I told you, limegreen is tempting, but it isn't an option. It's an addiction.
But i can't make it on my own.
I'm going for kellock funfair soon, but it's not going to be so fun. :/ I don't feel like going, because some people would be there, BOO! It's not like I hate them or anything, it's just that I don't feel like meeting them at all. They're just, not my type. I wish di's phone wasn't stolen, so that I could ask him to follow me there? ): Sigh.
Can I not go? If I go I will most probably find my cousin, but then again, maybe I shouldn't go! (:
I don't know, monster. Your supposed to come, ): & your ignoring me. Rahh!